vanity manifested

Reading list

2006-11-24T07:24:15Z

I have decided to keep track of what I've read and when I've finnished them. This is just to amuse myself. There's no purpose behind this.

The Second Summer of the Sisterhood, Ann Brashares (November 23rd 2006.)
Girls in Pants, Ann Brashares (November 26th 2006)

I've been bad, I admit. Should post more often...

2006-11-24T07:17:51Z

~They rolled in the grass and kissed and kissed and kissed until a boy on a bike threw the newspaper up the walk and scared them apart.~ from The Second Summer of the Sisterhood, by Ann Brashares

I'm home loves. =)

This is the second time I'm typing this. I am not happy. Stupid thing. Why didn't it recover?

So anyway.

I watched Death Note!!!!~~~~ ♥ There was an sms contest to win premiere passes to the Death Note screening, held by Lime Magazine (God bless those kind hearted angels) and even Dea, who has NEVER won a lucky draw somehow managed to win TWO TICKETS TO THE DEATH NOTE PREMIER ON THE SEVENTH OF NOVEMBER!! Like omg. Somehow, somebody understood how badly I wanted this. ♥

However, the trouble, and anticipation was not necessary. Lime gave my dad six passes to the same movie screening for free. Aih. Twas for the whole family. Now the trouble begins.

Dad was not home. Had a meeting. Can't take us to the movie.
Mom was simply not interested. It's Japanese after all.
I'm stuck.

A LOT of phone calls and plan making and plan re-making and re-re-making later (and much much heartache) I was finally sitting in the cinema with Han, Yvonne, Pei Min and two of her friends. (How did I convince my parents to let me go without parental supervision? Isn't that obvious? I lied) Elaine was supposed to join us, but too many plans had to be made and cancelled, she couldn't make it in the end. Missed you sweetie.

Watched the movie and L is Love! L is perfect! L is beautiful and eccentric and beautiful and funny and beautiful and beautiful. There was much squeeling from our row when he finally made his on screen appearance. ♥ Ryuuk was adorable to. I have less love for Raito though, didn't think he was enough like Raito in the manga.

This rave was supposed to be written the day after I watched the movie, but I didn't go online, so this is the overdue report written two weeks later. Magic date November 7th. Same date as Ce-Yan's birthday <3

Next.

My AS is finally over. The last paper was on Teusday. That was the twenty first. Now, the twenty second is a very important date. Yvonne and I made plans to celebrate. (It's Kyouya's birthday, but please don't start on the "Dea, you need a life" thing) We we're gonna go to KLCC cause I wanted to buy comics. That was my reward to myself for completing all my past year questions. However, when I asked my mom for permission, she said no. She said NO~! What was I to do? We decided to go with plan B instead.

Plan B:
Go anyway.

So Yvonne-chan arrived at my house at nine thirty in the morning, and her grandfather dropped us of at the LRT station. We went to KLCC, and Dea-chan proceeded to withdraw her scholarship money. (This did wonders for Dea's perspective on her grownupness. She took a train AND withdrew money! Nevermind that sneaking of without permission and withdrawing money to buy manga was not a very mature thing to do. Details details ne?) Then we headed straight for Kinokuniya.

Ah~~ The mangas. It's like a mini heaven. ♥ Unfoertunately, book one of Ouran was out of stock. I got 2,3,4 and 5 instead. heh. AND, I bought After School Nightmare, which I am honestly in Love with. Getting that book was a miracle I tell you. I've never heard of it except for the review in OtakuZone, and I hardly ever read OtakuZone. I'm not particularly happy with them. I liked the small, elte and selective world of the otakutachi. Them opening the doors to the public, makes the world that much less special. It's accessible now. Dea-chan's just selfish that way, but I digress.

So, armed with only a review and a generall distrust for reviews, and very little leftover money and a general stingy attitude, and not much time, I searched and searched for the book. Cuuldn't find it. But I didn't give up. I wonder what possessed me to want it so much. Found it finally, was the last one there. The price was a put off too. Eight ringgits more expensive than Ouran. I could have bought book 6. So why did I buy it? Something had made me buy it, and I am eternally gratefull to said something. Praise the Something! I love the book. I can't wait for the second one. I've read it over and over again already, came up with several possible plotlines, I'm high. Aih. LOVE. But again, I digress.

Do you beleive in Karma? What goes around comes around, no good deed goes unpunnished and stuff?

Whatever. The context of this monologue doesn't require you to beleive anyway. It was simply for foreshadowing purposes. XD
While looking for After School Nightmare, my mom called home and asked to speak to me. You may not fully understand the gravity of this. My mom NEVER calls home and ask to speak to me if Han is home. Han's more responsible than I am. There's no need to give instructions to me, since I'll just end up messing them up anyway. Yet, she did call home and ask to speak to me.

There was a plan set up for this. If for whatever reason, a parent calls home and for unfathomable reason, ask to speak to me, I am supposed to be in the toilet with a case of Diorrhea. (sp?) I will then receive an sms from Han saying, someone called home, and I will call them on my handphone. If they were to ask why I didn't use the housephone, I was to say that I was in too much pain and was too lazy to get up and walk all the way to the fixed line. This was the plan. We went over the plan before I left. Unfortunately, young kids don't have the capacity to follow through a plan.

My brother told my mom I was in the room studying. How is this preventing me from coming to the phone I ask you? El-stupido. So my cover was blown. I've been caught. Managed to get away with the where though. (I'm at the kedai runcit down the road) Quickly bought a cake at StrÜdles, and headed home. Arrived at Taman Paramount's LRT station and RAN home. (I ran, Yvonne walked, My situation was an emergency. It doesn't take that long to walk back home from the shops down the hill. And Mom was really angry. Tripped in the park, I was completely covered in mud. Literally. My shoes were making too much noise on the pavement and my warped sense of courtessy made me run on the grass so as not to disturb the other patrons of the park. Something is wrong with me. I really can't understand myself sometimes.Made it home, called her, got scolded somemore. Yvonne and I watched FMA the musical after that in my living room. My respect for Paku Romi (Which is already pretty high) grew even more. Woman is TALENT i tell you. And Envy was well...ENVY!!!! ♥ Yvonne-chan belanja-ed McDs to cheer me up. (You're the best. What will I ever do without you?) Then she showed me Final Fantasy Twelve. (Not happy with it. Too westernized. There wasn't an ounce of Eastern culture in anything that she showed me. But I know I'll end up playing it anyway. Final Fantasy is just that much ingrained in my life. And the graphics was beautiful nontheless)

Anyway, now I think I'm unofficially grounded. sigh.
But, I don't regret it. I rode on the LRT and I withdrew money, and I celebrated Kyouya's birthday with a delecious chocolate mousse cake with Yvonne and I bought manga. What was that quote? Equivelant Exchange. I may only have two hundred left of my scholarship money for breakfast lunch and dinner for a long time, and I may not be able to go out for a while. But I got good manga with me, and memories of a mishap. Experinces are important! Too much of my youth has passed me by when I wasn't looking.

Another thing happened when I was in KLCC. I got a message from Azat. "Are you in KLCC?"

Senpai who I haven't seen or heard from in a long time. <3 That was a major bonus. ^^

Next.

Today is Han's birthday. (And Irvine's but...I do have a life! It's just...a bit of a sad one. LoL) Han's fourteen today~

Happy Birthday HAN~~

Mami-san updated~ Yay! I saw "I am Prodigy" when I was saving the SNAFU chapters. Wheee~~ Nagi's here! Finally! I was really starting to worry that he'll be a stuffed tomato throughout the entire story. Not that this matters to anyone but me...

I'm sure more things happened, but I can't recall anything else now. Hmm...some other time then.

My missing my friends list goes without saying right? =) Missed you guys like crazy! And I'll try to update more often, I've always been meaning to, just that I really felt like I should concentrate on my exams this time. But they're over now, so I can come online more often without guilt.

Much much Love y'all

A paragraph for a topic.

2006-09-02T04:10:50Z

~Why is the rum always gone?~ Captain Jack Sparrow, Pirates of the Caribbean, Dead Man's Chest.

I got my test results back. 2As (Math and Biology) and a B (Chemistry of course. Chemistry! You are the bane of my existence) but my average is a borderline A. That's pretty good I guess. Not good enough...but I'll keep working on it. I've decided that if I do well for my AS exams, I'll buy myself contact lenses, since my mom thinks I should pay for them myself and all.

I've fallen in love with Nana. Pretty surprised when I found out Osaki Nana's seiyuu was Paku Romi. I've never been more happy that my family calls me Nana in my life. ♥ I wanna buy T-shirts with the number seven on them. But I don't want the football jersey kind. Speaking of buying...I bought new sneakers. The one with laces. Now I can buy shoelaces. hehe... =P Did I mention that I now own a total of FIVE Yami no Matsuei manga? If I didn't, well I do. Teh joy~. And teh lightness of teh purse. T.T

Erm, last week would have marked a month of me trying to learn to play Destiny Island on the piano. I can play the first two pages reasonably fluently now, though nowhere near the stated tempo. Feels rusty, wasted and slow. T.T Who takes a whole month to learn two pages??

I'm going to OU to meet Yvonne and Elaine, Saf and Rai (Unless there's a change of plan that I don't know about..) later today, but my dad is being a pain and I'm kinda angry with him right now. Guys, I'll probably be kinda late I guess.

Ooh, I've been asking around, if I was an animal, what animal am I most like? Three friends, a mother, a sister and a freind's mother voted peacock. Am I really that vain? o.0?? I never noticed. Though two friends and a friend's mother said it's cause I walk funny and one sister said it's cause I'm arrogant. T.T (That's even worse.) And I can't say that they were conspiring together, cause most of these people don't know each other. One sister and one father did say I was a cat though. (Their reason being that I'm lazy. I feel like I'm being bullied somehow.)

Tomodachi-tachi, I'm really sorry for not commenting on your posts, I do try my best to read them though. Except, I'm a little behind time, and commenting on them sometimes is rather redundant, cause it's something that happened so long ago and stuff.

I haven't had any fish dreams in a while, but two nights ago I dreamt I was Joker, last night I dreamt I was Jack Sparrow (and that I hadn't taken a bath in fourty years, but lets not go into the details.) It seems that I only dream when I'm at home. Something must be wrong with my bed in college.

The night of Merdeka eve I did a performance. A Malay dance. In all my life, I've never performed a dance before. That was a first. ^^ (Stacey said I dance like a flower, cause I was so bendable. Then she amened it with a 'like a sotong'. So I dunno if it was a compliment or not. ^.^;) I don't think the performances were all that great, but the audience were exceptionally responsive, so the event was a success. =D I really, really miss choir though. *sigh~*

Ooh~ I have an atm card now, which means I can finally withdraw my scholarship money. I feel so...grown up. Minus the sad feeling that usually accompanies the feeling of grown up-ness. Of course, I have to first figure out how to use the Automatic Teller Machine thing.

Till next time then,
Dea-chan with all her love. ♥

I want~

2006-08-16T08:02:23Z

~When a man and a woman are in love, they have sex. Then nine months later-~ Sophia Lopez, Nip/Tuck

Uncla Radha is gonna take me window shopping tomorrow for an mp3 player. I've got my heart set on a Creative Zen Neeon 2 though, but I don't think the 4GB model is available yet...and that's the one I want. But then again, since we're not actually buying it yet, it should still be a possibility right? Besides, Uncle Guna (who lives in Singapore) offered to see if he could get it cheaper. He'll be coming for a visit in a few weeks. Whee~ Dea-chan is feeling happy.

And I've been on an icon-hunting galore. Noticed the new Schuldig? ♥ The amount of icons I have here right now is almost disgraceful. Especially since I probably wont be using 70% of it. Need more Shigure loving.

Speaking of which. When did so many Furuba scanlations come out??? The last time I checked they we're stuck at chapter 110. 110! For MONTHS. Suddenly there's until 131. This is a good thing. (Sort of. I just realised later that there're a few missing chapters in between) More Shi-chan~ ♥ And Akito wont let go of my heart strings. I ship Sigure x Akito! ~~Though honestly, I don't think Akito makes a very pretty girl.~~ Furuba manga is ♥

Yvonne-chan came over yesterday. We watched Ouran 15-17 and Bleach 86-88. Then...there was a videotaped pillow fight...order McDs ice-cream. Oh, and she made me lunch. Fetuccini Carbonara. Something else happened that I wanted to mention...er...oh. I tried the 'Which Bleach Captain are you most like?" quiz and got Yamada Genryuusai. T.T I'm so old~~~~~ Unhappyness. And I cheated on the "Which fma character will you most likely marry?" quiz to get Envy. Except I had to cheat twice, didn't cheat well enough the first time. Hey, it's a good thing that I'm a lousy cheater. Proof that any good test result I get (as well as the bad ones) we're purely by me.

omg, it's only Wednesday and I'm already bored at home. Why isn't anyone ever on msn messenger?? Skip school la people.

Exams week is finally over, and I get a week of rest

2006-08-14T06:13:26Z

~I'm not really knowledgeable in this area but, to make corn snacks taste like melon, since they're not actual melon, wouldn't it just feel weird when eating these?~ Ootori Kyouya, Ouran Kouko Host Club.

I had exams last week. Biology, Chemistry and Mathematics. We had classes during the day, and the exams were conducted at night, eight-thirty ish. I usually have my dinner around that time and since I couldn't eat and do my exams simultaneously, I ate around ten-thirty, which is after my exams. Not only has my biological clock gone haywire, now my eating time is off as well. T.T

Bio went alright, I think I did pretty well. Math was pretty good too, which is quite surprising, cos I tend to do very badly in the mini tests we have every week. (With all honesty, I've never scored more than sixty percent in those, and failed two out out of four) Chemistry was....horrible. I couldn't answer two thirds of the questions. I didn't even have a vague idea of what they were talking about. It was almost like sitting for the Monbukagakushou Exams all over again. I was @.@ the whole time. What am I gonna do~~?? I can't fail! They'll take away the scholarship. T.T Dead dead die.

On a slightly happier note, I've got a week of rest and relaxation now. ♥ Home sweet home. Good food, good rest, good people, good friends. Unfortunately, my holiday is a little out of sync with other people's holiday. School hols will only start when mine ends. KTT = Evil.

I went with my grandfather to Sungai Buloh yesterday to buy fish and stuff. He gets them straight from the port, for maximum freshness and lower price or something. Nostalgia~ I used to follow him there quite often when I was younger. Back when I didn't find dead fish repulsive. I'd almost forgotten. I guess it's kinda weird to be remeniscing about such a place, but seeing it again really brought back forgotten memories. There's this one room there where the fishermen have tea and rest in between trips. I remember eating there once. I must have been pretty young. I don't think my feet reached the ground when I sat on the chair. I really miss being a kid, and being so close to my grandparents. I hate this feeling. Like I grew up too fast.

Saturday I went out with Yvonne to OU. My parents are becoming more lenient now. I actually didn't have to lie about the trip. Elaine Saf and Shiean were supposed to join us but stuff came up. Went to Yvonne's new house. Whoa~~ So pretty. I'm a little jealous. Her parents bed is the grandest thing ever. And I bought the prettiest handphone key-chain thing in all of handphone key-chain land. Black lace is love. We watched Dragon Tiger Gate. Yvonne guessed who'd be my favourite character. Nyaa~ she knows me so well. Turbo = cute. And that girl whose name I can't remember, the one who got the tattoo. I think her story was so sad. Cried (quietly) when she died. Asian movies = ♥.

I'm supposed to cut down on the length of my entries so I'll end here.
♥♥ Dea-chan

This is starting to become a disturbing pattern

2006-06-09T03:16:28Z

~What a funny kid...he reminds me of Cielo~ Argilla, Digital Devil Saga: Avatar something something 2.

This quoting thing is so much fun. I know you people probably wont get most of them but I get them and they're hilarious to me, so think of it as an investment for laughter in my future if I decide to reread my posts or something.

I know it's been ages since my last update, and I'll spare you the lame excuses as to why. Just my apologies.

Quick review of things that happened in the past two weeks.

I went to Cameron Highlands for a few days with my grandparents and my brother. The good: Lovely Weather, Lovely Strawberries. The bad: My brother snores like nobodies business. I bought a cactus for myself, and one for each sister, RM20 worth of strawberries for my family...but I don't know if they got around to eating them before they turned squishy cause the same day we got back from Cameron Highlands, my dad, siblings and I went of to Penang. My came and joined us Firday night, cause if she was to take leave there's a complicated procedure of paying someone else to take her shift....and apparently you have to pay a lot. So she came by plane.
When in Penang I went parasailing! ♥ It was an amazing experience. Whee~~ I was flying!
On Sunday when we were driving home from Penang, we stopped by my grandmother's house (my dad's mom) in Kuala Kangsar. Apparently she wasn't feeling well, so my aunt told my dad to go visit. It's been a while since I've seen her. There was an amusing exchange between her, my mom and Ira which went something like this:
Grandma: (to Ira) "something in tamil" (then tries to translate into Malay) er...Berapa..
Mom: (tries to help by saying to Ira) She's asking, how old are you?
Ira: Oh, oh. eleven. Sebelas.
Grandma: ooh. (In the blink blink uh....I don't really get that but I'll pretend I do way. Then turns to look at dad)
Dad: (to my mom) She's confused cause she asked a different question and got a different answer. She wanted to know what grade is Ira in.

Was funnier there I guess. heh.
Grandma gave me a congkak set. It's purdy cause instead of using marbles we use seashells. So~ pretty.
College will start on the nineteenth. I'm feeling rather...dejected I guess. I'll be bringing all my seven pillows and Elizabeth (I named my cactus) along though. So that's a good thing I guess.

OH! And I have to do some raving. 'Digital Devil Saga: Avatar something somethng 2' is AMAZING!! (insert gazillion hearts) I totally love the game. When I was playing the first game, it was very much a "oka~y...I don't get it yet...but it will be explained by the end after all so no worries. Just get to the end of the game and ALL will be clear" And then at the end of the game I realise that NO! They DIDN'T explain everything by the end of the game. It was still a complete muddle of gibberish. I would have killed the game creator people if I didn't already have the second game when I finnished the first. So now I'm in the middle of the second game and FINALLY! They're explaining things! And I heart it cause so much is carried over from the first game. DigiDevil1 only supplied the questions. DigiDevil2 only gives answers. If you played only one of the two you really wouldn't get much of the story. I heart!!! The graphics are pretty, the gameplay is turn based which is good, cause every other kind of gameplay gives me motion sickness, and all the extracts from Hindu-Buddheism is beautiful, and the story is disturbing, and angsty and at the moment I feel like it's the Perfect game. Cielo~ I heart you you idioto. And Heat!!! nyaaa~~ my poor baby.

Oh, and Neon-senpai, have you read SNAFU: The world according to Schuldig? Cause it's funny beyond all reason. Still waiting for Mami-san to post an update.

I have to finnish four RPG games before I go to college....

2006-05-24T07:15:36Z

~Don't talk to him! He's from the marines! The MARINES!!~ Monkey D. Luffy, One Piece Manga

I dreamt a number of things last night.

I was Eduardo Riviera from Extreme Ghostbusters. Some girl I apparently liked just died. There were a few of us who liked her, all stuck in this room in this building that looked like my house, but the interior was all wrong. And we really wanted to save her. So being the soppy romantic and desperate guy that I tend to be in my dreams, I offered to go out and get it. ('IT' here is crucial in saving this...dead...girl, but I don't know if it was an item or a guy or if it was an action (ie. killing the villian) so just play along. It's a dream, there's no such thing as logic in the land of poppies.) Going out to get 'it' means bending the metal bars on the windows (one of the other guys who liked her did this for me. Eduardo's too skinny to manage something like that) and jumping off the roof...witout getting caught. This was accomplished with a lot of screaming (the dudes were teasing me for screaming like a girl. I wonder how I managed not to get caught.) And I vaguely remember my dad being the villian. Anything else that happened in the dream was too discontinuous and blurry to recall.

After waking up from that and falling asleep again, I had another dream
There was this ugly fat woman in a white wedding dress, who was about to get married (hence the wedding dress) to this kinda cute guy. I think Saf would have liked him. He's not my general idea of a cute guy. (he's european looking for one thing) but yeah, still quite good looking. He wasn't very thrilled about getting married to this loud, obnoxious, fat and ugly woman though, and she was only doing it for the money...or the fame...or something, I can't remember now, but she didn't love him. So he decided to go rock climbing to de-stress himself. And I followed him. I wonder why....I don't think I existed in the dream until that very moment. So I went rock climbing with him and we chatted. There were ten steps to the top, and by the time I got to the ninth, something occured to me. He'd already finnished and was standing at the top looking down at me.

                      Dea: Hey, umm...am I wearing the strappy string thing? (cos I couldn't see to make sure myself)
                      Him: What strappy string thing?
                      Dea: The one that's supposed to protect me from falling....
                      Him: No.
                      Dea: Why not?
                      Him: Cos junior/inexperienced climbers don't need to wear that.
                      Dea: WHAT?? Then, what if I fall????
                      Him: Oh...do you want me to get one for you?
                      Dea: YES!

So he went off to get it for me...and there I was dangling HIGH up, without no safety nothing, and I thought I was gonna fall, so I climbed back down, except I missed the lowest footing and fell anyway, about 3 inches...but I landed flat on my back. And I lay there until he came back. I'm not sure why...I think I was severly injured....though it didn't hurt at all. And it was only 3 inches. When he came back, he picked me up and carried me, (the way Disney princes carry the princessess, not piggy back style. And I remember thinking, whoa~ I always wanted to be carried like this) and I was scolding him all the way back to the wedding. (not scolding gile gile, scolding very mildly. I was an oddly gentle person in the dream) There, I had somehow magically recovered, and he danced with me to apologise. Then we ended up married..... And the ugly fat woman was OBVIOUSLY very angry and very jealous, but I developed a sudden burst of telepathy and I heard him think "HAH!" in a very "Yes! I don't have to marry fat and ugly!" way.

This is a totally pointless post, but I felt the need to type it out anyway. Maybe if I record enough of my dreams, they'd actually make sense.

Useless fact of the day: White poppies mean dream. Just thought I'd share the info.

Overdue Report

2006-05-23T08:00:37Z

~You have soiled my glove! I mean love...you have soiled my love...~ That adorable brother whose name I've forgotten, Casanova

Remember I promised to post on Yvonne's and my spaghetti fiasco? I've finally got around to it. I'm not very sure how to post videos though...so I'm experimenting. Lets pray it works.

The chopped ingredients. Though if you refered to the videos...you will see that Yvonne-chan did most of the work here. but but...I opened the can of mushrooms!

The rest of the ingredients. Oh, by the way, who recognises the kitchen?? XP

The spaghetti as it cooks. There was heart-ache here to. Refer to "spaghetti cooking" video.

The sausages we used.

My half of the end product. The rest was put into a tupperware for Yvonne to bring home. ♥

Once we were done with it. ♥ It was kinda...okay...very salty. But since it was made by our own two pairs of delicate hands, I thought it was still pretty good. XDDD

Now for the videos..how do I do this? Umm...

Chopping
Can Opening
Spaghetti Bending
Onion Cooking
It's Done!

The file sizes are pretty small, cos all the pictures and videos were taken using Yvonne's handy dandy amazingly cool phone. ♥

And so...this all happened I think on the 21st of April...Yvonne's planning to come over again tomorrow, and we're gonna make spaghetti again...only with tomato sauce. ♥ Wish us luck.

The mummy returns

2006-05-10T08:34:17Z

~If anyone asks, there were fifty of them, and they were...um...rattlesnakes~ Diego, Ice Age 2

I'm ba~ack. There were some problems with my mom's laptop so it was sent for reformatting. I couldn't go online the whole time. The good thing is, I went along with her to the computer shop and managed to ask the computer-dude to make a backup of my download+half finnished downloads. So yay. I've got my animes that haven't been burnt onto a cd yet and the half finnished ones. Whoopie~ the releif.

But.

The bad news is, he didn't make a backup of the torrents. And suddenly when I went back to animesuki to look for them, I realize to my shock and horror, that two of the series that I've been following have been licensed. The torrent files are gone. I have 17 + 6 half complete files now that are no longer around. And these episodes aren't from the end of the series. It's the middle. I've got the first 10 and the last 15 but the middle all tak de~. T.T Maybe I'll watch the missing ones on youtube or something.

I bought my first anime dvd boxset today! Yay! I own FMA! The joy~. I now have the opportunity to watch Envy any time I want. w00t~ I think this is a big milestone for me, cause I'm always so stingy.... But I'm learning to spend my money now. As long as I don't turn into a shopaholic it should be fine. ♥

Finnished reading My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. (I hope I spelt that right) And I loved it. It's very touching and Jesse just yanks at my heart strings. Although I know the real tragedy had nothing to do with him.... I've got one helluva soft spot for misunderstood bad boys with mental problems. Actually misunderstood anything, most bad boys, and anyone with mental problems = i like.
I'm struck by how 2 dimensional I am. TT

Rating:9/10
I'f you have the time, and the opportunity and you haven't read this yet, I strongly recomend it.

Yvonne-chan sent me the videos and pictures for our speghetti making fiasco. But I'm not in the mood to put them up yet. (as in..I'm lazy) But I will remember to put it up in the near future. Hopefully.

I'm giving up even before I start...that's not like me

2006-04-26T08:07:08Z

People tell me to study and to try my best. And I tried studying, but I feel....there's absolutely no way I'm gonna be able to finnish learning everything in English in time. I wish Sunday would hurry and be over, but that means that it's bye bye for the scholarship, (although it is practically bye bye for the scholarship anyway) but if Sunday was further away, I might be able to cover enough ground to survive the test.

I try to calm myself by thinking: most of the people taking this test learned in Malay too, so they're no better of than I am, and they're gonna select the 15 top scorers right? But then I think again, the eligible age is 17-22 which means A-level students and STPM-ers might be applying too, and they're definately better of than I am.

And what about the people from private/international schools who did learn all these things in English? Maybe I should just stick to waiting for the JPA scholarship results. But, even if I do get that, they're definately not gonna send me to Japan. And what if the six chapters that I do manage to learn in the little time I have left out of the 32 chapters that I'm supposed to know are the very 6 chapters that they select questions from and I somehow end up knowing the answers? What if that crucial decisive chapter is the chapter right after the one I just finnished?

oh my God the roundaboutedness.

How am I keeping myself motivated? I think, hey, Raito wouldn't give up like this! He'd ace the test and end up getting full scores!
Then I think...well yeah, but Raito was the top student in all of Japan...and he's a genious. I'm....me. So I end up back in my room napping.

Did you know that after reading Death Note, i was so amazed by how smart Raito and L were that I immediately went to my room and studied Chemistry last year? lol.

Had been taggified by wickedlust

Once you are tagged you MUST write a blog about your 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next six people to be tagged and list their names.

hmm...six weird habits. This might be difficult.

er...uh...this is difficult. Aishyo......does it have to be a habit? can it be a fact?

#1 I have many false memories. Since I recall my dreams so clearly, and I imagine conversations with my friends alot, and I have a strange ability to recall thoughts. I remember things I thought back when I was at least 3 (cos I remember playing in the snow, which means I was either 2 or 3) I tend to mix them up with real memories. So it isn't unusual for me to say something to someone about how fun it was when we were playing jumprope at her house and they go: huh? You've never even been to my house before.

#2 My level of hyperness seems to work directly porportional to my sister's (han). What was the term? Berkadar songsang? The less hyper she is, the more hyper I become.

#3 When we go out to eat, and I have to order a drink...I actually think about the food I order then try to decide what drink will go best with it, like if I'm having salmon, I don't want something like pineapple juice because it'll wash away the taste, and on many occasions, I can't decide and I end up just having chilled water.

#4 Oh, I don't do this anymore, but I used to. When I bathe and have shampoo in my hair, I'd try sculpting it into different hairstyles. Like I try putting it all up then flattening it so I look like some Jamaican man, or I try making a wave shape or a coconut tree shape.

#5 When I read a book, sometimes I get so absorbed in it I beleive I'm the main character. (It's true, even if it sounds lame) some time ago, when I read What Katy Did, I was lying on a bed and I felt thirsty so I asked my sister to make me a drink and she told me to make it myself and I just stared at her. In my head I was thinking: how the heck do you expect me to make it?? I'm BEDRIDDEN!!! I broke my SPINE!! oh..wait....no I didn't.

#6 I'm running out of things. There was a time, when I slept walked. I walked all the way downstairs to my maids room and asked for the orange and the purple ice-creams in the fridge cos they weren't there anymore and she said we don't have ice-cream and I got so angry cos I knew that we had some just last night and since it wasn't there no more, she definately took it and ate it herself. So I went back to bed very angry. Next day, my mom was laughing at me.

Tagging: snowless ,muffinsniffer,omgitsrae,pillowaddict,gerai_neon,salah_kira

New layout

2006-04-25T02:32:22Z

Myaaaa~~ It's so pretty. Come see come see!
But I wonder why the community link doesn't work...I'll figure it out later.
COME SEE~~~~
deagami

Stupid English speaking world

2006-04-24T08:58:04Z

I got the letter from the Monbukagakusho saying I'm supposed to come for their exam this Sunday. So that leaves me with about seven days to study. I've crammed in a shorter time before...shouldn't be tooooooo much of a problem. And besides it's only math and bio and english and chemistry and I can choose to not take the Japanese paper too, but I wanna though I'm certainly not gonna bother to study for it. And I'm not gonna study for English either.
Was what I initially thought.

But there are problems see.

I've sold all my revision and text books to the paper lama man.
The bloody papers are gonna be in english.
I checked the sample papers and their HARD!!
I haven't studied anything since SPM

So what have I done about it? I went out with my mom to buy a Chemistry and Biology revision book. I was like:

dea: mama, you're actually gonna spend fifty bucks on something I'm gonna use for another week?
mama: if it's gonna make a difference.

Okay...so I now have two new revision books. Nothing for math though...(the paper punye math is like add math standard and we're not allowed to use calculators)...any kind friends who'll lend me their add math revision books?? And I paniced most of the morning away when I realised I didn't understand 80% of the Bio paper. Then I complained to Rai, Shiean and Shin. Rai helped me with some words, we both talked about dying. She said she was gonna die too. I told her she can't, cos she has to live and seek my revenge for me. Then she disappeared to go and concentrate probably so I complained to Shiean. I can't really remember what happened, but it came to a point...wait oh yeah.
I said life is being very mean to me. First I find out Kyouya is engaged. Then theres the fact that Shigure is with Akito. (I totally supported this pairing even before I knew Akito was a woman, and I don't support it less even after. More! cause it's so bittersweet. but you know, this sorta makes Shi-chan off limits) and Joker's dead. STUPID SUICIDAL IDIOT. And you know...not happy stuff....then Shiean said: I love you and and your friends love you too. And I was lagging and I didn't know she'd type a lot more after that so I said: but theiy're all girls!!! and suddenly her messages came fwooosh up and there was gojyo in the midst so I have to apologise to him now.

"Gojyo-chan I know ur a man, dun be angry with me pleaseee~"

So anyway after much complaining and panicking I decided it was time to study, cept shin came online and I was like SHIIIINNN~~~ I NEED UR LOOOVE and Shiean was like Shower dea with your love, make her drown in your love or something like that...tho it sounds kinda wrong now, this was all said in a just friends way okay? So whatever, I don't think she even knows why I needed the love (as a fuel of motivation cos all I felt like doing was panic) but she went ahead and used lots of emoticons (that cute pink rabbit thing that pops up with the word love underneath) and Shiean gave me lots of hearts then I left and crammed chapter 7 of chemistry into my head. Then I took a nap, ate food, read a bit more, napped, checked my downloads, napped, read a bit more, napped and now I'm online typing this.

The thing about me is, I deal with stress by running away from the problem. So the more worried I am about this exam, the less Im gonna study. Whee~ T.T

I die. I die I die and I had sooo wanted this scholarship. Die lar wei. Today I managed to cover Chapters one, two and seven of form four. The first two chapters are the lousy why you studying this chapters...thats how much I studied. I die die die die.

Convo on msn messenger

2006-04-20T08:36:19Z

Bellow is the conversation between me and Snowless. Honestly, its so mengader, but when I read it again, I had such a good laugh over it.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Heya heya

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

How are you?

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

I m,issed you

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

LOLOL

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

smelling like johnson's baby bath

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

ROFL

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

When I bathe I probly smell like milk

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

LOL

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

really?

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

what shampoo do you use

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

jap

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

brb

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

okies

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

tolking to yvonne

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

ahh s'ok s'ok

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

slowly slowly

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

i tak pe punya

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

playing with photoshop

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Okay

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

sih back

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

sorry sorry

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Whacha doin with photoshop??

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Turning my pictures into a super hero??

You have just sent a Nudge!

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Youcanthearthenudgecosurbusy

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

...

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

You have just sent a Nudge!

You may not send a Nudge that often.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

why???

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

I should be able to nudge as often as i want lar

You have just sent a Nudge!

You may not send a Nudge that often.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Stupid

You may not send a Nudge that often.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

aaaaaaaaagh

You may not send a Nudge that often.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

blardy blardy

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Weeeeeeeeeei

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

nevermind

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

I tolk to Kyouya

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Kyouya sama

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Nani?

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

I think I'm in love with you

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Huh?

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

See, er, during recess can you sit with me?

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

*would

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

That depends

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Im free I suppose, so you can designate me if you want

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Yay!!!!!!

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

But can you afford it?

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

....

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

..........

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

checks her bank account

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

er...I think so.............

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

(please let the parents not know I'm using my savings to designate a boy to have lunch with me)

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

I'll fit you into my schedule then

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Myaaaa

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

(I don't think I'm doing this right...I need more exposure to Kyouya to pretend a conversation with him)

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Okay, who to talk to now

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

er...

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Gojyo-chan

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Heya babe

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

(*faints* he called me babe)

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Gojyo-chan, are you free tonight??

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Honestly, that kuso bouzo wants me to go do something

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

(buy grocerries...but I can't tell a hot chick that I'm supposed to go grocery shopping)

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Eh? To fight demons isit?

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Er...yeah yeah

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Demons

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

that's right

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Oh okay then.......

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

(No way I can't say no to girls..especially when she's so cute)

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

(omg, dea so mengader LOL)

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Maybe next time?

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

*smile*

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

But!

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

But, you know.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

The demons can wait for tomorrow.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Eh really??

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Yeah sure.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Lets give them another day.

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Who knows, maybe they'll repent or something

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Besides, I'd rather spend my time with you

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Hands dea a (There was an emoticon of a rose here)

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Ah *blush*

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Gojyo-chan is so nice

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

[The dea who's typing is ready to faint d]

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

Kisses Gojyo's cheek

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

(Score!!)

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

yikes

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

gomen dea!

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

moi's back

- Bυттзяƒlγ's тзddγ says:

dea:: Shiean-chan abandoned me says:

SHIEAN!!!

And so and so on. But reading the thing really makes me wanna Laugh all over again. See the strangeness that happens when dea is bored.

Hahaha, go Saf!

2006-04-19T10:20:54Z

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Your Power
Favorite Superhero
Favorite DC era
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Number of times you are killed then brought back to life by some Deus ex Machina	23
Your Weakness	Cold
Ally that ends up killing you the most often	yinghua
Your other, less popular Arch Nemesis	acidburn711
The Sidekick that became popular enough to spawn his/her own series	saf_pooch
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meme + insane outburst

2006-04-17T07:30:52Z

I stole this from snowless who stole it from muffinsniffer. XDDDDDD

1.Do you still talk to the person you had your
first kiss with?
Yes, though you'd be surpirsed if you knew who. Technically, my first kiss was a bug. It was flying around my head and I got irritated, so I caught it my fist, and squished it only it wasn't hard enough apparently, cos when I opened my hand, it flew out a little drunk like and bertembung with my (closed) mouth. The first human who kissed me was Li Yen though. XDDD and the second was Pei Min.

2.What would you do with 1,000 plastic
spoons?
Er...uh...I'd take a plastic bag and cut a hole at the bottom and fill it with the spoons (Wait...there's a thousand...okay, several plastic bags) and hang them of of the ceiling fan in my room then turn the fan on. It's snowing spoons!! I used to do that with my stuffed toys...only minus the plastic bags.

3. What did you do when you weren't in school
in the 2nd grade?
I don't remember ever missing school in the first half of my primary school, cos my mom never beleives me when I tell her I'm sick. (beleives in present tense)

4.What is the best thing about your job?
What's my job?? Anoyying my siblings?? Well then work benefit already stated. XPP

5.Do you like more than one person right now?
(I like Shiean-chan's answer!! Plus she put my name first. I LIKE YOU TOO SWEETIE!!) I don't actually have a crush though.......

6.Are you against same sex marriage?
Not at all.

7.Did you vote for Bush?
I'm not American. But even if I was, I wouldn't.

8.Where are you going on your next vacation?
My dad's department is supposed to have a family day/several days somewhere but I can't remember where. Dea tends to mix up Taiwan, Thailand, Beijing, Bangkok and Shanghai....but I don't think its any of those places. I know I thought about those places (cos I couldn't remember which was which) when my dad mentioned the place though.

9.Where did you go on your first ride on an
airplane?
UK i think, when my parents were studying there. That was when I was two.

10.Are most of your friends guys or girls?
Girls...it sorta comes naturally when you were in an all girls school. XD

11.Do you own any furniture from Ikea?
I think one of the dustbins in the house is from Ikea.....I think....wait, dustbins aren't furniture are they??

12 Last book you read?
If manga counts then, Yami no Matsuei book 7. If a book then it probably was Valiant by Holly Black. The one where the poem I liked came from.

13.If you could have one super power what
would it be?
I wanna be a telepath!!! Then I'll never have to study for an exam ever again!

14 Where have you lived most of your life?
Right here.

15.What was the last conversation you had
about?
JPA scholarship and further studies in general.

16.Where do you see yourself in four years?
Er..university?

17.What's your favorite smell?
My grandparents store room. I used to steal the keys and go stand inside and take deep breaths when I was younger. XDDD That might explain my terencat akalness. Oh, I like the smell of freshly baked cookies too. <3 (Sallie!! I don;t know what a character map is!!)

18.What is your favorite sound?
Bells. (not the big ben kind or the ones that hang from a cows collar though. And not the school bell) And wind chimes.

19.Are you moody?
Extremely.

20.What's your favorite movie of all time?
I know this...Oh yeah! Who Framed Roger Rabbit.
Ask me what my favourite book is!! Peter Pan!!

21.Have you ever done anything vindictive to
your classmate?
No, I don;t think so...if I did, it wasn't intentional.

22.Have you ever gone to therapy?
Puan Ranchani sent me when I was in form 2.

23.Have you ever played Spin the bottle?
No. But I played the pass the rubberband using toothpicks held in your mouth game. But I had a girl on either side though. XDD

24.Have you ever toilet-papered someone's
house?
No, it's a waste of money. Instead of buying toilet paper, I could buy more manga. Or the X-men comic. REMY DID DIE!!!!! T.T

25.Have you ever liked someone but never
told them?
Most of the people I like are animated...and Miyavi lives a little too far from home for me too confess too. LoL

26.Have you ever gone camping?
Once at the end of Standard 3.

27.Have you ever had a crush on your sister's
friend?
ROFL!!! I don't like younger men.

28.Have you ever gone to a nude beach?
No, but I wanna try one day, just to see. Not to participate.

29.Have you ever gone streaking?
THat's running around naked right? No.

30.Have you ever had a stalker?
If I did, I didn;t notice.

31.Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
No...and unless its a private jacuzzi or something it's really really ICKY!

32.Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?
Several times. And usually over my own jokes XDDDDDD But Shiean-chan has said some things that nearly brought tears too.

33.Have you ever gone to a party where you
didn't know anyone?
If I didn't know anyone, how'd I get invited??

34.Have you ever been in love?
(I LOVE DV's ANSWER!!! ROFL) Sadly no.

35.Have you ever felt betrayed by your best
friend?
Maybe, but not very often, and hardly ever justified.

36.Have you ever lied to your parents?
Several times a day. It's a survival skill.

37.Have you ever been out of the malaysia?
Yeah. (Shiean?? You've never even been to Thailand/Singapore??)

38.Have you ever thrown up from working
out?
I felt like it once..but no. I haven't thrown up since like standard four. Even when I try. So there's no chance of me ever becoming bullemic I guess.

39.Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that
you
wore a hat?
Ask me how often I get haircuts, and how often it was ever more than a couple of inches.

40.Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3
different
fast food places in 1 day?
Maybe...I'm not sure. It's not something one generally keeps track of.

41.Last song you listened to?
That M.Nasir song...I don't know the title. (I listen to Xfresh.fm)

42.Have you ever spied on someone?
I used to pretend I was a spy. Does that count?? I also used to pretend I was a gargoyle.

43.Have you ever slept with one of your
coworkers?
I shared the same bed with Li Yen and P-chan on a few occasions. But not the slept you're talking about obviously. Don't be gross!!

44.Have you ever seen your best friend
naked?
I've seen them in their underwear and in their bikini/swimsuits.

Edit: And Ouran ranting!!

I watched episode two! SENPAIIII~~ I watched episode twooooo~~
Omg omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomogmomgomgomgomgomg
It's official, I'm completely smitten with Kyouya!! Mreooooowww

I think he looks hot when he pushes his glasses up. <3<3<3
I think he looks hot when he shuts his notebook/file thingy <3<3<3
I think he looks hot in that long coat thing during the Dance Party!! (I WAnNA Dance with him!)
Generally, I think he's hot. <3<3<3<3<3<3
And I'm absolutely fascinated with the way he planned out the accident at the end. What was the probability that Tamaki would walk just onto the banana skin, and just at the right time and fall just right to push Haruhi!! Omg! He's a precog too!

And and the scene when Tamaki was saying Outosan wants to see you when you look like thiss~ And the picture that came out of a box that was too small for it, and Haruhi's reaction to Tamaki's complaining and the way Tamaki looked when he complained to "okaasan" that their daughter was using foul language. (I didn't know Ore was foul. Less polite yeah...not exactly foul, but that was what the subs said) And when Hikaru or Kauru (I can't remember now) said: Mother meaning who? and Kyouya said: Position-wise, it should be me. And nobody reacted to that statement at all!!!

And the sound of Tamaki's Eeeh when he terpush Haruhi is priceless! aND the twins look so good in the brown thingy they were wearing! And Honey-chan has stolen a special place in my heart and I absolutely adore Tamaki's clumsy jealousy! Kyaaa~ I watched the first episode three times and the second twice already!!

The coffee scene in the first episode is HILARIOUS!!! Boleh mati laughing! Especially the twins reaction when Tamaki said he'll try the coffee.

AND I SAW THE NEXT EPISODES PREVIEW!! usually I never watch previews, cos I find them annoying. But the point is PHYSICAL EXAMINATIONNNNNNSSSSSSS~~~~~~~~ Bwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ~~Kyouya looks soo hot~~

And super amazing thing just happened! I can tell the twins apart from their voices!! It took me four years to tell Nana and Jaja apart and they're real life friends but it took me three days to tell Hikaru and Kauru apart!

OOOOHHH plus plus when they go into commercial and the Kanji for the title comes out with everyones pictures in the Kanji...Kyouya's picture comes out in the Kanji for Ran. *insert ultra hyper fangirl gibberish here*

That's it. I've exhausted myself. *faints*

Expect a second edit cos I'm off to watch episodes one and two of xxxHolic now. <3 Shiean-chan!!! Hurry watch Ouran!!!!!

BWAHAHAHA

2006-04-14T06:55:05Z

BwAAhahahahahahahahahahaha. Bwahahaha. Bwaaahahahahahahahaah<---- just finnished watching Ouran. OMG, my sides hurt. That was sooo~ funny. I've got tears in my eyes. At first I thought Tamaki was like Ayame reincarnated, but later I decided that if Ayame decided to create an anime, Ouran would have probably been the result.

I couldn't edit my previous entry because I needed a whole different emoticon for this.

THANK YOU SO MUCH NEON SENPAI!! Although indirectly, my downloading of the anime was because of you!!
p/s: I think I've fallen for Kyouya already (was that his name? I haven't quite caught the names yet), but I have a feeling that by the end of the next episode, I'd have fallen for all of them. Why didn't I know about this show sooner?? *insert a bagazillion hearts here*

*is off to watch it again*

edit:

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Dithering Idiot - This jerk acts like the slightest commitment to love is a cliff edge. He's affectionate to his intended, more so than a friend and more often than not, unless his intended is dense as a brick wall, the other already knows of his intentions. They usually have a MU(mutual understanding) relationship except there are many misunderstandings in it since the other is baffled by all the dithering. Cure for this type: several good pushes and prodding.
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My honest reaction to seeing the picture was a loud, shrill, short Kya!
OMG, he looks like a teacher! Like a very HOT teacher. ooohhh~ I feel some fantasies coming. *runs around happy* now I wanna go back to schoooolll~ Hey look! Another evil megane I'm head over heels over.
P/S: LOL, I guess the dude who's dense as a brick wall happens to be tsuzuki huh?
P/P/S: (or is it P/S/S??) If my smile gets any wider, its gonna meet at the back of my head!. Ah~ What a happy day. <3<3

Checkmate!!!!!

2006-04-14T06:02:26Z

I started playing chess again. <3 I miss the game. The first two games I played with Han, I lost. This would probably be because

I haven't played in a really long time
Han is still in the Sri Aman's chess club and plays every other week
I'm just stupid

Frankly I think it's because of the third option, but I shouldb't degrade myself so often. I do it bad enough everyday when I'm trying to do sudoku. By the fifth minute I'm saying stuff like "that's it! It can't be denied. I'm an idiot. It's official. Dea is stupid" and han will be answering (in the automatic voice from having had the same conversation countless times) "no you're not. You just need to look a little hearder. You just started. It's memang hard" while playing the playstation or watching CSI. She's only paying like 20% of her attention to me. If I said stuff like "Ding dong the witch is dead" in the middle of "I'm stupid. I have no brains" I bet she'll continue her reply like nothing. XD

Anyway, back to the point, Ira got excited and wanted to record the games for us, so she's our official chess...uh....recordist.... All our games are recorded in a book (note to fie: this is the book with the Echo episodes in em. We started from the middle) So I'm planning to go over them later and bang my head on the floor over every incredibly stupid move i made. Or I might be too lazy and just leave it there to rot.

Anyway, I lost the first gazillion proper games, (okay, more like three) and then I wanted to try a blitz game. (Blitz game is a really really quick chess game where there's really not much time t think, you just quickly place something then smack your head over ur stupidity) but I wasn't sure how much time a turn gets, so Ira counts down from ten for us. (She gets really excited, and since she has to start again when it's another persons turn, she gets the numbers mixd up "10,9,8,6 eh uh *Han moves* oh okay 10,9,8 *I move* 7,6" Han:"oi, 10 balik lar~" Ira:"oh oh uhuh 10,9 *Han moves* It's quite funny. Especially when she already reaches zero and we haven't moved yet and she just carries on counting (back from ten) and han gets angry and says: "Nana move now or I'll forfeit your queen" And I'm like "No wait jap jap" (Snatches queen from board to protect it from Han.)(Han grabs a different piece) You know, come to think of it, she should have said I'll forfeit your king, cos then she'll just win lah kan??

Wait, back to the point, so even if I can't beat her in proper games, I have won 2 out of three blitz games! <3<3<3 I'm sooo happy, and I won one regular game last night! In thirty-two moves I think. It took a whole hour. Without exageration. I feel so professional <3

Except Han is pretty angry with me since I take so long to move. There was many a snatching for the queen and the rooks.
Wow, pretty long entry just about chess. lol.

btw, I'm in love with the Kingdom Hearts 2 Opening song "Passion" soooo nice~ *heart* (I wonder what the alt code is for the heart thing...siapa tau?Kasi tau sama saya please?) And when I went online to search for the lyrics, I found out that if you played the Simple and Clean song backwards, there's a subliminal message!!! Not the "arise and murder ur family for the devil is rising amongst us" sort though. A more harmless sort, and I was fiddling with the Windows Media player to see if I could make it go backwards, but I can't figure out how...I just got it to play really really really slow..... Does anybody know how???

Neon-senpai's post made me wanna watch Ouran High School Host Club (adoi, panjangnye nama) so I just finnished downloading the first episode fansubs. Gonna go watch *heartheart*

Driving class yesterday made me miss America's Next Top Model. I hope that Keenyah girl got kicked out. Can't stand her.

Someone else is eighteeeeeeeennnn!!!

2006-04-13T03:16:50Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHIN YU

Loooookk! I pakai rich text this time! and I hope the html works...

Venting out

2006-04-12T14:44:57Z

Whoa, watched Grey's Anatomy for the first time today. OMG, I like it. I wanna watch more often. <3 Expecially since House is on repeat, and my memory is good enough that I remember 80% of every episode and 75% of the dialogue....why didn't that happen when I'm studying history?...it's not as enjoyable anymore. Grey's Anatomy is my new favourite series. ^^

Second driving class today. I have a lot of trouble with the slope thing. I keep missing the yellow line. Tak cukuplah terlebihlah. >.< And you know you need to excersize when after you've done a three point turn, you're exhausted and your arms are on fire. I knew I was weak, but that was a major shock. Mr. Instructor offered to lend me his smartshop excersize mechine. XDDD Three point turns take 10 minutes, starting the car takes 5 minutes. It's official, dea is the worlds SLOWEST driver.

I bought Yami no Matsuei manga yesterday!! And the opening picture on the first page was like the best gift an inanimated object could have ever given me. Tsuzuki sitting down to an elaborate meal that Tatsumi probably made for him. Heart heart heart.

I think Gambit died. I borrowed the Ultimate X-men comics from a friend in my Literature tuition last year, I read book one to eleven. Gambit (who is 50% of the reason I wanted to read the thing) only made an official appearence in book eleven I think. (He kissed Rouge!!!!!!) He popped up, some witty dialogue, lots of pretty pictures, then he left with Rogue who quitted the X-men. So anyway, I've been laughing my head of at the funny AMVs at youtube you see, so I thought, maybe they've got western cartoon clips there too, so I looked up X-men and I watched this one thing which was a tribute to Remy (Gambit's name) and there was all these OMG scenes of him and Rogue from the Ultimate X-men comics and some from the older comics probably and then there was this scene where I think he DIED!!! Rogue was holding him in this big mess of what used to be a building, and everything was glowing pinkish purple (the colour of things after Gambit charges them) and he was all limp and there was a speech bubble that I managed to read before the pic disappeared. Rogue: yeah, you got him baby. And the next picture she's sobbing into his chest and his LIMP! *dea has a panic attack* And if this happened, it probably happened in the twelfth book, which my friend hadn't bought yet (cos it wasn't released here yet) and now I really REALLY WANNA BUY IT but unlike my manga which already is burning holes into my pocket, the Ultimate X-men comic cost SIX TIMES THE AMOUNT EACH! There is absolutely no way I can manage to fork out RM129 something for it. T.T

And what is UP with X-men 3?!! Juggernaut is appearing, Angel is appearing I know some other mutant I don't really care much about is appearing and Gambit? NO! No there's not gonna be a gambit! And you know why? I'll tell you why. It's BOBBY DRAKE! He's gone and paired himself up with Rogue and now if Gambit showed up it'll totally spoil the pairing, so painstaikingly played out in the first movie, so they've gotta exclude him. HELLO!!! You should've put Gambit into the first movie lar~ STUPID DIRECTORSSSSSSSS~~~~ *dea goes to a corner to cry*

I'm a geek and I'm proud of it. =^.^=

Severe Fictional Character Addiction

2006-04-10T11:46:44Z

Lol, that was what Dhivia my new personal psychiatrist diagnosed me with today.
See, last night I dreamt I was Ally McBeal, the night before I dreamt I was Scrooge McDuck, two nights before that, I dreamt I was Gambit, racing against Cyclops in an underwater maze but I lost, and something happened and I ended up having to give Mystique (technically, she's like my mother in-law cos she's the mom of my girlfriend. I insist! Whatever happens!! GAMBIT AND ROGUE FOREVER!) a piggy back ride. I mean like wth is wrong with my brain?? And like a week ago I dreamt I was Angelina Jolie.

ROFL! Ira just called Irfan badak. LOLOLOLOLOL! She doesn't call people stupid. Instead she calls people payung and I can't remember what she used to call han, but it was some sort of Veggie...oh yeah KangKung. And now Badak!

I haven't updated in like wooow but thats because LJ and MSN are being mean to me. *insert string of curses here* So, quick update:

JPA scholarhip interview: very glad that'sover.
First driving class: It was raining and I've got problems with getting the car to start moving...the engine always mati so I'm extra careful with letting the clutch go and pressing the gas pedal when in first gear, so getting the car to start moving takes like five minutes. Thank god my instructor is so nice. P/s: he used to be in the army, and he speaks Tamil Punjabi Malay Hindustan (is that what its called) fluently, and a smittering of Chinese, German and enough of English (he can speak English fine but, u know, not grammatically correct). ITS SOO COOL!!!

I started playing Kingdom Hearts 2, and I love it but I can't really remember the story from the first game so I'm thinking about replaying the first one first to get the story, but that brings to the point that I haven't finnish playing Digital Devil Saga yet nor Chaos Legion nor Phantom Brave nor Final Fantasy X-2 and a whole lot of other games so I'm keeping my hands away from the Kingdom Hearts series until I finnish my second cycle of Digital Devil Saga and Digital Devil Saga 2.

I can't really think of anything else to say now. So I'm gonna go bathe. <3

deagami @ 2006-04-04T13:14:00

2006-04-04T05:17:07Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE!!!

Sorry I couldn't come yesterday, My dad threw stupid tantrum again. Seriously, he's worse than a woman during PMS. \./#

I have ur present but I dunno how to give youuuuu!!! I'll give it to you one day kay.
*Huggles huggles*Enjoy ur life as an eighteen yearold!!!!!

Day two and three

2006-03-31T09:06:35Z

Day two
Okay, today we were supposed to visit the clinics. We went to the clinic perubatan and got a lecture about healthy lifestyle from the woman who's the Diabetics Counselor. Okay, honestly, most of the clinics have blurred themselves together in my head, so I'm just gonna type about what I vaguely remember.

I also got to see this machine that scans the heart. Ultrasound machine I guess. I saw this little boy get his heart scanned. He was so cute. he looked so excited about having so many strangers crowd around and look at a black and white picture of his heart. lol.

I saw this machine that treats sever asthma attacks. It sounded quite loud, I mean for a breathing device anyway. An old lady was using it.

I went to the clinic for O&G. The clinic is where the patients come in and talk to the doctor about their ilnessess or symptoms or whatever. The wad is where the patients stay. So the clinic was pretty small and pretty crowded. (Some of the nurses recognised me. The funniest reaction was: Eh, macam pernah nampak je ni. Anak doktor Farouk kan? I was kinda blur at first cause...well I'm a blur person, so I was actually looking around to see who she was talking to. LOL. Most of the doctors didn't recognise me though, which is a pretty good thing)

At the ortopedik klinik place, it was quite busy and I must emphasize that the rooms were pretty small. Coming in and going out was pretty dificult. Basically, it's not designed to hold more than one doctor, one nurse, one patient and one relative of the patient. The doctor there told us that, typically on a not so busy day, he'd have to see 150 - 200 patients. OMG! 0.0

Today was not so exciting. We didn't really see anything woouu amazing lar.

My dad had to stay in during lunch (Cause he doesn't usually take lunch so he uses the lunch hour to work) except this time there was me...so I got two chapatis and some mutton something, and chicken curry and fish curry (the chicken curry had chicken, the fish was just the curry. Don't think I'm some sort of weird gluttunous...er, glutton) But I didn't finnish the second chapatti cause the curry was pedas, and I drank so much water. Took a nap in my dads office cause his dvd player wouldn't read the disc I brought. *sniff* had wanted to watch Casanova....

Day Three

Okay, today is the day we get to go see the wads. First I went to the wad perubatan. Medical wad lar. All the staff was occupied, so we were left alone to just walk around. I felt quite bad, it pretty much looked like we were on a class trip to the museum and we were gawking at the patients like they were the exhibitions. I'm sure if I was the patients, I'd hate to be looked at like tht. Some of the patients were hurt pretty bad actually. There was this one guy who can't hear and cant speak and can't eat cause he's got this breathing problem Chronic something. So even if he's in pain, he wouldn't be able to say anything. He had to have this tube inserted from the front of his throat to help him breathe. They pakai this liquified oxygen thing.

In the surgery wad, there was this dude who was getting his legs stitched up. Can see raw muscle wor. Looked painful. This was also another wad where we were left to ourselves to try and figure out what to do. In the end, we ran of to the Gynaecology wad.

This went better cause the people there were more eager to show what they were doing. One of the female house men gave a long talk about how her life as a hauseman is. Quite busy lar. I think thats the only thing that worries me. Im the sort of person that when I get tired, I'd just stop working. Doesn't matter how important it is. Thats why my buku latihan, I can still use the ones in form two for form five, seeing the amount of homework I;ve actually done. I dunno if I can force myself to be hardworking enough.

Oh well. We'll see lar kan.

Oh, and I got to see a miscarriage punye placenta.

My dad took me home later. We went to MU jap to see about the Ambang Asuh Jepun if they got some special program or something, except the people there were Out To Lunch and wont be back for another hour, so he took me on a tour of MU. He showed me his old hostel. The sixth college people. Thats where my dad used to stay, twenty three years ago. LOL.

Then later I had kebab daging~ yay. We went back to the AAJ, and found out that the thing they offer is under JPA like blar lar~.

Now I'm home chatting with Saf, Rai and Elaine about Rai's arse and Elaine being molested.
Lol. Or I might have just made that up. XDDDD

JPN program

2006-03-30T04:58:35Z

I was gonna do this yesterday, but I was just sooooo tired.

My JPA medical exposure thingy thing thing.
day one

Came to work with my dad, which meant I had to wake up at 6.30. T.T Anyway, arrived at the hospital roughly 8.00 in the morning. Sat in my dad's office for a while, waiting for nine o'clock to come. Nine o'clock, went to the registration place to register. (duh) Went to the huge meeting room place with this extra loooong round table. The kind you see in office dramas, with the projector at the front an sooo~ many chairs. (I've never seen one of those tables in real life so I was pretty impressed) The table was full though so I had to drag a chair to the back and sit then more people joined me, then the chairs ran out. A nurse came in, looked shocked, went out, then dad came in, looked shocked, went out, then a different nurse came in and told us to move to the auditorium cause there was just too many of us.

(The day before, my dad was worried that I'd be the only one....)

Went to the auditorium, listened to the pengarah hospital talk. (My dad likes him. Kept saying he's a nice person. He thinks he's a very fatherly, gentle person..which is true. LOL.) Then I went to the Jabatan Kecemasan. There was a guy who looked like he slammed a hammer on his thumb, it was bleeding pretty badly, but he looked quite okay. Then there was this other guy who was getting his hand stiched. The cut looked pretty bad, but he was like selambe~ je. Sitting there while the doctor was stitching with the curved needle and all. He even talked to us, saying he slammed the door on his hand. I guess this is where they treat the clumsy people lar. XD

That was in the green and yellow room, where they keep/treat the non-accute injuries and stuff. Later we went to the red room where the critical patients were. Two of them were on the ventilator thing, they looked comatose. It was interesting lar, can't say it's cool cause people are hurt/sick.

btw, the cute officer dude is married.

After that, we went to the Jabatan Forensik.
I saw a dead body! Like really. I expected it to be blue, honestly, but the corpse was pretty much normal living human coloured, except for a bit of bruise colour around his neck area. It was amazing, but the smell was quite...difficult to get used to.

After that, my dad was gonna send me home. We sent back these two girls I met that dy first, they lived in a hostel near Taylors. Their both actually from Kuching, but they're studying in Taylors. Then, we went to the Japanese Embassy to submit my scholarship form. We missed the first turning, then we missed the turn back, and we missed another turn back, and it was almost four and there was a traffic jam and it was pretty scary. We made it though, but I desperately needed to go to the toilet.

My dad told me that I can now say: the first time I went to the Institut Jantung Negara was to go to the toilet. XP

Will update day two later. Am hungry. XD

meme

2006-03-27T15:15:32Z

Aiyah, got to think lar this one. I wanna do it properly....

Was tagged by wickedlust and indirectly (lol) by saf_pooch

Name ten of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick ten people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

1. Waking up in the morning, and then realizing that its not a school day so no need to wake up early, then snuggling back into bed with my seven comfy pillows and being so thankful I could cry.
Doesn't happen as much since I don't go to school nemore or not yet anyway. But waking up and going back to sleep is seriously one of my lifes greatest of simple pleasures.

2.When it rains
Nothing beats the rainy weather. It's the most comfortable situation I could ever find myself in. Sitting in bed and watching/listening to the rain fall with Hakushaku-sama in my arms. (That's the name of my bantal busuk. Yes I still have one, no I can't imagine living without it and for those who know, yes it's name after the invisible dude in Yami no Matsuei.)

3.Hakushaku-sama
Cause the above got me thinking about life without him and I can feel a panic attack coming on. I can't tell you how nice it is to feel him on my back when I'm sleeping on my tummy, or hugging him when I'm sleeping any other postition. Even when we go on holidays, I'd bring him along, regardless of what anyone says.

4.A good fanfiction/story. Usually the angstier the better, but there have been a few happy ones that put great big smiles on my face
I guess I'm an otaku-geek through and through, but an update of Mami-san's keeps me happy for days and a complete story keeps me happy for a week.

5.Crying because of a sad thought.(or a sad movie or a sad book)
I dunno if anyone else does this, but I like to tell myself stories in my head. And they're really long running stories, with different variations and different endings, but all the endings are super sad and I end up crying (the *snoblesnifflesnort* kind) over them when I finnish one. But to me, that sort of sad is a nice feeling. (Long running as in, the begginings were made up when I was thirteen. And this isn't exagerated)

6.After taking a nice cold shower/bath and sitting in my room enjoying how it feels all refreshed
The feeling rarely comes in the morning though. I'm never a morning person.

7.My darling friends
I seriously didn't want to write this cause the instructions were to be original and to not repeat what everyone else wrote and veryone wrote friends but if I didn't write it I would be lying to myself because really, you guys are one of the pleasures of my life. (does anyone else think using the word pleasure sound hentai now? Wait, it's Shin Yu/Rai's fault isn't it?) When my friends remember little things like my birthday, or when I get the sms-es out of the blue that says: "I love you" really makes my day. And if you people have such horrible memories that you can somehow forget, let me remind you: I LOVE YOU PEOPLE TOO.

8.Talking to my sisters. Especially talking to Han.
Cause her reactions are usually, (shakes head in an "I give up on you, you're utterly hopeless and you're a moron" way)yet it never offends me. Ira is more fun to talk to cause she's just as utterly hopeless and moronic as me so we carry on and on and have so much laughs. XDDDD

9.Completing a house of cards/beating my record.
I haven't managed this in a while. And since I lost the other suitable deck, I can't attempt to beat my record again...the ones I have are too slippery. (P/S: my record is still 9 stories. Just wait Sallie's sister, One day I will get more then 10! I will not be defeated!!)

10.Suceeding in learning a little bit more of a piano song that I've been trying to learn for so long
Except now it's going backwards cause I lost my notes. Come back! Ye one winged angels and cities that never sleeps and I dunno what liberi fatali means but come baaack!

Tagging:
wait...Most of these people are probly already tagged...but oh well.
omgitsrae,sui_generis88,muffinsniffer,teh_oseekfelicitysalah_kirapillowaddictsnowlesselchouniji and yinghua

P/S: I wanna try that trivia thing too.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Diyana!

The only Englishman to become Diyana was Nicholas Breakspear, who was Diyana from 1154 to 1159.
Diyana is picked, sorted and packed entirely in the field!
Bees visit over three million flowers to make a single kilogram of Diyana.
The fingerprints of Diyana are virtually indistinguishable from those of humans, so much so that they could be confused at a crime scene.
Diyana was the first Tsar of Russia.
Louisa May Alcott, author of 'Little Diyana', hated Diyana and only wrote the book at her publisher's request.
Research indicates that Diyana will be attracted to people who have recently eaten bananas.
Diyana is black with white stripes, not white with black stripes.
When Diyana is swallowed, she will enter the blood stream within twenty minutes.
Abraham Lincoln, who invented Diyana, was the only US president ever granted a patent.

OMG, I love the results. Except maybe the people who ate bananas thing....
I'm ancient (which implies I'm wise even if I'm not lol.)
I'm nutty. (I assume the second one is about nuts)
Im SWEET. <3<3
I'm a master of disguise/camaflouge. Yay, I can be an assassin/ninja!! W00t!
I'm royal! (I dunno what a Tsar is though. I'm assuming its royal)
I ... don't have any witty/lame comment for this one.
er...see the above.
ZEEEEBBBRAAAA~
I'm intoxicating
I don't understand this one.

My day as an attachment <3<3<3

2006-03-27T13:46:02Z

Hello people.

Just wanted to write about my day. <3
I followed my dad to work today, and my mom lent me her lab coat (so I was gonna wear it when I'm at the hospital)(is that how you spell hospital? Cos thats the malay spelling right? Should it be like Hospitle? But that looks wrong...) My dad didn't think I'd be able to do all the things the JPA people suggested us to do so I got to go on a special before-hours sneak preview thing.

So when I got there, my dad said that he had to go for the briefing. They have this every monday where they (all the doctors and nurses in my dads department) will discuss all the cases they had the previous week. They talk about like problems or weird cases or what they could have done better and yada yada.

btw, you know whats another word they spell weird? Tuesday. My sister just told me that its spelt u before e recently and I was like what? You're lying. I've been spelling it teusday my whole entire life, or what I can remember of my whole entire life. Its pronounced tea-oo-sday after all, so it should be spelt teusday. tuesday would be pronounced too-es-day. But Ira agreed with her so I supposed I have to admit that I've been living a lie all this time. I was telling her that thats how I've spelt it even in school and no teacher has ever corrected/reprimanded me, and it just occured to me that I never write the day/date in my excersizes, so they kinda never knew....

So back to the topic...where was I? Ah, my dad told me to wait in his office first until they get the briefing thing over with cause he was afraid he might have to do some shouting and temper losing and stuff. Or whatever. So I played minesweeper (Beat all the record time in his computer XD) free cell and pinball. (I lost so many solitare games) then this lady came in and said my dad called me to the meeting room. There he introduced me (very briefly. People, this is a person who is somehow related to me. Was what he said.)

Okay skip the boring parts. I followed these two medical officers who were doing their rounds in the wad. ~~one was kinda cute~~. omg, Saf's journal entries are influencing me! They showed me stuff like the CTG which stands for something I forgot which shows the heartrate of the baby and stuff and they et me feel the babies in the mommies. They showed me how to recognise the diff between the babys head and the bum cos the head is firmer and can move one. For most of the mommies, I kinda didn't know what I was feeling also, cause I was afraid of pressing too hard or moving too much nanti something pecah/patah kang ha dah kena. But there was this one mom where I distinctly felt the head the arm and the foot of the baby. Whee~ I think the last baby in tummy I touched was my bro and that was so long ago, I really don't remember.

One of the other babies even kicked! <3 And there was this mom who was having triplets! I was so like whoa! cool-ness. She was bigger than the other moms (like duh). So that was fun. Then later the specialist (a very nice lady whose name I can't remember) came and was discussing the patients with the other doctors and she was asking them some questions and telling them stuff like (you can't do it like this and when this happens you gotsta...etc) It was really cool. Like an extra fun class with Puan Mary. And I got one of the questions that she asked the MOs right! Whee~ thank you Dr. Razman!

Later, I went to the labour room. There was this lady giving birth. Two actually, but I was only really watching one. That was kinda panicky. Cause the baby wasn't coming out because she wasn't pushing hard enough/wasn't pushing right or something and the nurse was saying something like:"tarik nafas panjang panjang, bile sakit tolak kuat kuat lama lama. Ni dah dekat 40 minit dah ni. lambat lambat kang, baby lemas. Bile baby keluar tak bernafas kang" and I was like OMG!!!! Come on lady, I know it hurts but PUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHH!!!! Only I didn't say it out loud cos I didn't want to wake the lady next door who just delivered.

Finally the baby came out. It was a GIRL! <3<3
The lady next door also delivered a girl. New born babies are ooogly, but you can't help loving looking at them anyway. Couse their so small and they cry funny and their still cute.

Now I'm tired and sleepy.
*yawn* fun day!