Current mood:	distressed
Current music:	A naruto song I can't remember the title

Stupid English speaking world

I got the letter from the Monbukagakusho saying I'm supposed to come for their exam this Sunday. So that leaves me with about seven days to study. I've crammed in a shorter time before...shouldn't be tooooooo much of a problem. And besides it's only math and bio and english and chemistry and I can choose to not take the Japanese paper too, but I wanna though I'm certainly not gonna bother to study for it. And I'm not gonna study for English either.
Was what I initially thought.

But there are problems see.

1. I've sold all my revision and text books to the paper lama man.
2. The bloody papers are gonna be in english.
3. I checked the sample papers and their HARD!!
4. I haven't studied anything since SPM

So what have I done about it? I went out with my mom to buy a Chemistry and Biology revision book. I was like:

dea: mama, you're actually gonna spend fifty bucks on something I'm gonna use for another week?
mama: if it's gonna make a difference.

Okay...so I now have two new revision books. Nothing for math though...(the paper punye math is like add math standard and we're not allowed to use calculators)...any kind friends who'll lend me their add math revision books?? And I paniced most of the morning away when I realised I didn't understand 80% of the Bio paper. Then I complained to Rai, Shiean and Shin. Rai helped me with some words, we both talked about dying. She said she was gonna die too. I told her she can't, cos she has to live and seek my revenge for me. Then she disappeared to go and concentrate probably so I complained to Shiean. I can't really remember what happened, but it came to a point...wait oh yeah.
I said life is being very mean to me. First I find out Kyouya is engaged. Then theres the fact that Shigure is with Akito. (I totally supported this pairing even before I knew Akito was a woman, and I don't support it less even after. More! cause it's so bittersweet. but you know, this sorta makes Shi-chan off limits) and Joker's dead. STUPID SUICIDAL IDIOT. And you know...not happy stuff....then Shiean said: I love you and and your friends love you too. And I was lagging and I didn't know she'd type a lot more after that so I said: but theiy're all girls!!! and suddenly her messages came fwooosh up and there was gojyo in the midst so I have to apologise to him now.

"Gojyo-chan I know ur a man, dun be angry with me pleaseee~"

So anyway after much complaining and panicking I decided it was time to study, cept shin came online and I was like SHIIIINNN~~~ I NEED UR LOOOVE and Shiean was like Shower dea with your love, make her drown in your love or something like that...tho it sounds kinda wrong now, this was all said in a just friends way okay? So whatever, I don't think she even knows why I needed the love (as a fuel of motivation cos all I felt like doing was panic) but she went ahead and used lots of emoticons (that cute pink rabbit thing that pops up with the word love underneath) and Shiean gave me lots of hearts then I left and crammed chapter 7 of chemistry into my head. Then I took a nap, ate food, read a bit more, napped, checked my downloads, napped, read a bit more, napped and now I'm online typing this.

The thing about me is, I deal with stress by running away from the problem. So the more worried I am about this exam, the less Im gonna study. Whee~ T.T

I die. I die I die and I had sooo wanted this scholarship. Die lar wei. Today I managed to cover Chapters one, two and seven of form four. The first two chapters are the lousy why you studying this chapters...thats how much I studied. I die die die die.